Deze song voelt groots en toch weer héél intiem. Moeilijk te vatten, de intensiteit van dat monotone drumpatroon boven een soort lappendeken van distorted gitaren en synths. De bezwerende parlando/zang maakt het helemaal af. Geen hapklare brok, wel eentje die goed binnekomt.
El miedo de amar pero igual lo hago verschijnt op 7 april 2023 via Icons Creating Evil Art.
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The brainchild of composer/musician/artist Carlos Ibarra, Maulén collaborates with a multitude of artists to create art with the ambition of manifesting something unique, beautiful, strange, and alluring. “Maulén” is the surname of his grandmother, a member of the Mapuche people in Chile, and translates to “a wet valley.”
Ibarra comments on Rostro: "
This was the first song i wrote for this album back in 2019. The lyrics are about a connection i got with someone and in just a few days she was gone from my life forever. The song is a slow and beautiful monolith in Persian featuring Behzad Barazandeh on vocals. With an epic and melancholic mood the song takes you on an journey inwards towards your inner darkness."
The music video for 'Rostro' was made by close Maulén-collaborator Johan Lundsten who has a very personal connection with what he put into this vide, he explains:
- "The theme of the video took form during a chapter of my life when I had a massive cancer scare; I found a huge lump in my stomach which led to five weeks of tests and hospital visits. I lost my mother to cancer in 2016 and I remember her telling me that the hardest part of the disease was not knowing; waiting for the next batch of test results, the next prognoses, the next percentage chance of remission or growth. The answer, regardless of which one, was often easier to deal with than the waiting and not knowing.
I kept envisioning the moment I would get a result, and what trajectory it would send me on. There was no way I could fight off my thoughts of death so I chose to embrace them - I decided to practice dying. To accept that I only have a couple of months left despite not knowing that to actually be the case. The sense of clarity and gratitude for every single little thing around me was astounding. I felt closer to my memories of my mother than ever before. It was also an absolutely dreadful and lonely existence, since I didn't tell anyone around me as to not make them worried before I knew for a fact I was sick - something that felt important at the time but I'm not sure I would do again.
After the five weeks of waiting, it turned out to be an extremely inflamed muscle in the abdomen. No cancer. I was left with a second chance at life, but before moving on I needed to manifest these dark fears from my mind through art. When I heard 'Rostro', I knew right away that it was the right vessel. The video is a wordless journey through the mind, a meditation on the absoluteness of death, a depiction of non-return - a snapshot of the fever dream I lived during those five weeks.
It has changed me in ways I don't fully yet understand, and I hope to find connection with people through this video. We're here a short while, but we're not alone. "
Carlos Ibarra began his career as a guitarist and songwriter in various local bands before reaching infamy and notoriety across the metal and punk scene in Europe as a guitarist/songwriter/producer of the death metal act Age Of Woe. With them, he recorded two albums and two EPs: Inhumanform (Suicide Records, 2013) and An Ill Wind Blowing (War-Anthem, 2016). He has also released music with Terrorstat, a band featuring members of Walk Through Fire and Serpent Omega as well as Wefring featuring members of The Leather Nun, Exhale, and Psycore, amongst others.
In 2019, after spending a year composing material, Ibarra began work on a solo record. He recorded the music in a subterranean water cistern that has been abandoned for almost one-hundred years and is located 20 meters under a small hill in Gothenburg, Sweden. This water cistern just happened to have magical natural reverbs that are up to eighteen seconds long. Working in this was a true challenge: electricity was limited, it was wet, cold, and full of rats and spiders. Not many recording engineers would do it, but Carlos Sepulveda (Psycore, Leather Nun) was up to the task. For four magical days, Sepulveda and drummer Stefan Johansson (Abrovinch, Jimmy Ågren), worked in this enchanting setting.
The following year, Ibarra went to the Thar desert in India to find the peace and serenity necessary to write the lyrics to these songs only to get stuck there during the outbreak of Covid-19. This served as a huge inspiration for the lyrics of his upcoming album: El miedo de amar pero igual lo hago. The 2xEP record touches the subjects of loss, heritage, and the feeling of belonging or not belonging with lyrics sung in Spanish, Polish, Arabic, Persian, and French.
